Man, I'm really neglecting this place. Not my fault though really. Free time is a dream, until July 20th at least. These 3D classes are really demanding all of my thought and time to get through them (but I'll definitely admit they are certainly fun!)

Man though, my personal art is suffering. I haven't done anything NOT for class in months. Well, I take it back. One picture that may or may not make it up here as it was nothing more than a doodle of a previous drawing.

I've been going through some of the older crap in here, and deleting things that I really can't stand to look at any more. The little tattoo doodles stay, they bring a nice air of nostalgia when I look through them that I'm not ready to part with yet.

I go with a few people to A-Kon on Thursday, with a most likely unfinished Hades Shun cosplay. But that doesn't matter. I'll just see how I can manage sending in some 3D modeling assignments for character modeling and balance the con schedule along with it. Shouldn't be hard, I don't do the concert/

Enough ranting. I'm out of here before the next wave of storms pass through here.dance thing.



To-Do:
Upload stuff worthy of being uploaded/finish some things

Gaia: Modifoxes owed work; Velkyn work - Zero's done, Megaman X was nagging at my brain to get worked on, more jewewlry in the works to be finished; some random other things

Solia: Gift avatar art for Starscream.. still. I need to get that shading down when I have a brain.


RL Firends:
little sis:

Online Freinds:


I know there's more.. kick me if I left you guys out

Kiriban 6,000.. as if anyone's going to hit it though.






[link] ...interesting......

Clubs I'm in:


Clubs I run:
Unfortunately on hiatus with my current internet issues (Hughesnet)

Where you can find me:

Malikztiah Ankhere on Gaia online
Shun Andromeda on Solia online

So....I turned 23 today. Spent most of it with a headache, but I didn't have anything planned anyway.

Can I have a pause button on time, please? I didn't even feel 22 yet, now it's 23 already? Where did time freaking GO?

A pointless journal. This will get replaced, probably. Maybe. Something better might come along to say between class projects to update peoples on that I can't just say over MSN messenger or Gais, or Solia for whomever I'm needing to tell it to I guess.


Later.

Is it REALLY November? Seriously? Where has all the time gone. I'm looking forward to the year ending though, I still need my fresh start. 2008 is still jut.... "blah" for me. Lost my uncle in spring, grandfather peacefully went after a long and painful battle with brain cancer, then my cat Lucky just weeks ago was put down from lung cancer we never knew he had.

Seems I've gotten myself into the swing of things on Solia though, doing avi art and entering contests for fun. Started an auction I plan on ending on my birthday if I ever get any bids on it.

November 19th...and I STILL don't know what I want, or where I want to even o to Memphis and eat..

Thanksgiving with the family, you shall be quite awkward indeed.


Anyway just a random update while 3D Max continues to eat my soul, and hard-drive.

Had to replace that last journal. just looking at it made me feel all blah again. -_-;;

So it's been a week today since my grandfather died. it's still really awkward getting over it, and going to his wife's house to divide up all of his old possessions and furniture to take out of there as she's ready to sell the place and move now. The house is so empty, it's kind of creepy. It was always empty on a good day, because only two people lived in a four bedroom house with a mother-in-law wing just to fit all of their belongings in one place. :/ What is it with the elderly in the South and hoarding all their furniture and belongings from parents and the like? It's just WAY too much stuff.

Off of the subject though, I need to stop thinking about it I've had my grieving time. I have a couple things to upload that I forgot to even before all this crud happened.. I'll do that when I finish my 3Dmodeling/animation assignment on Friday and finally get the class over and dome with. My brain and muses are mutinying after cramming that information in.

Don't read this is you hate ranting. I'm not emo, or self-pitying, or looking for sympathy. I just needed to let this out or I'd burst.

Sure, the year started off great, I enjoyed my online classes with AiO, New Year was as boring as usual, valentines we got cheesy chocolates from my parents again, and my uncle's heart surgery seemed like a success.

Then in the spring, he suddenly died and a major blow hit the family. My idiot cousin took it hard losing the uncle that he joked around the most with, and told his mom his friends were more important to him than the funeral. Not cool. He made amends with her after the family get together for the 4th of July (He was out with his friends on that day too the jerk) and we were all fine and dandy. Akon this year was amazing an my sister and I had a blast at our first big con together with friends.

No, the good couldn't last could it. Karma just had to have something in for us. Our last living grandfather just died tonight after a long and painful battle with cancer. I never knew what kind of cancer it was, they never told me the name, but it invaded the nerves on the right side of his face. Two months ago we thought it was cured, the nerve was removed, his kemo was finished and he was doing so well. No it had to come back, and no more radiation or kemo could be done, and everything went downhill like a rollercoaster with the brakes removed.

Don't expect to see anything new from me for a short while, I need to take some time to just let myself grieve, and rant about life and pull myself together and still manage my classes. I'll be around, just not submitting stuff for a bit.